It was always a matter of all or nothing. If I wasn’t turning up at one rehearsal after years of being always there, I’d lose the part I’ve worked hard for.

2009-2015 Xmases and New Years were a mix of loneliness, hunger, no home and hoping someone will invite me to spend the Xmas with them or a family member can visit me and help me feel less lonely.

Four minutes in our supposed brainstorming session he pushes his chair, nervously and aggressively, and asks everyone to leave the room, except me. At this point, I know trouble is coming.

It’s true. If we are hurt because of something, if we can’t understand and therefore can’t get to terms with something, if we can’t forgive…

I knew from an early age that I didn’t want to be a birth mother. There was nothing wrong with my body or my mind. I often dreamt about getting married and was always described as a loving person.